How an Ending Feels

by Busy Living

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released October 28, 2014

Recorded, Mixed, & Mastered by Derek Moffat at 608 Studios.
Produced by Jacob Lee, Derek Moffat, & Busy Living.

Guest vocals by Brianna Jackson for track "Circadian".

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Track Name: Year Three
You're afraid to touch anything but spoiled pavement
I've been driving these winding back roads
I know you smell cigarettes on my breath
We can talk about home and our parent's health

I've been too tired to figure you out
And way too reckless to hold on to doubt
I've been too tired to figure you out
And way too reckless to hold on to doubt
Track Name: Townline
Three years ago
I lost my mind on a concrete floor
No love, no sirens, no low lights on a couch
Days that I swore I'd never write about

Make sure your doors locked
We wouldn't want your father here with us
We swam upstream on a love seat
A cloudy era firing, synapses repeat
I found for all of this
It's in these words in the air they kiss

I'm feeling lonely
I feel cold down to my feet
Are you feeling lonely?
Do you see me in your sleep?

I tried to figure out
How that old oak survived the drought
It sways back and forth like it's dying on its toes
But I'm not done yet
I've still got some fight left

It's kind of funny how fast a wallflower grows
From a seed to drunken petals falling on the floor

I’m like a silent movie
That you’ve heard
But you’ve never seen
I wrote you a pure blood screenplay
And my guts went straight for the ending

I tried to figure out
How that old oak survived the drought
It sways back and forth like it's dying on its toes
But I'm not done yet
I've still got some fight left

Three years ago
I lost my mind on a concrete floor
No love, no sirens, no low lights on a couch
Days that I swore I'd never write about

This summer breeze
It took us both by storm
With undiscerning ease
This time it’s different
This time it’s different

I tried to figure out
How that old oak survived the drought
It sways back and forth like it's dying on its toes
But I'm not done yet
I've still got some fight left
Track Name: Blankets
Covered up with blankets
Maybe I’ll hibernate for the winter
Days get shorter by the second
Being home just makes me miss her
Those freezing nights in my car
Our breath facing the defroster
You pull your knees into your chest
I put my heart out on the dashboard

Cutthroat sunsets
I’m just ashamed that you’re not hear for it
My hands and my tongue
Have never felt so sick
Take me back to Konstantine and thick coats
A steady income of snow and icy roads
I’m not being resentful
I’m just letting go

You had me hook, line, and sinker
Couldn’t even see you had me wrapped around your finger
We built these bridges
They’re only as strong as these bones that fits so well
Hammers they wont stop tearing
These broken boards that keep us apart
A structure bound with such a meaning
We were destined from the start

Cutthroat sunsets
I’m just ashamed that you’re not hear for it
My hands and my tongue
Have never felt so sick
Take me back to Konstantine and thick coats
A steady income of snow and icy roads
I’m not being resentful
I’m just letting go

I’m not cut out for the West Coast
I need changing seasons
I need a new coat
I want my car to stall on New Year’s
I like my fingers in white

I’m not cut out for the West Coast
I need changing seasons
I need a new coat
I want my car to stall on New Year’s
I like my fingers in white

You found out every flaw in me
And exploited them for every one to see
Now I’m finding out I’m better than all of this
You drain every single word I breathe
They flow through the air
And only thing I had
Was lost in the atmosphere that night
Was lost in the atmosphere that night

Cutthroat sunsets
I’m just ashamed that you’re not hear for it
My hands and my tongue
Have never felt so sick
Take me back to Konstantine and thick coats
A steady income of snow and icy roads
I’m not being resentful
I’m just letting go
Track Name: Young Veins
Clothes on your floor will free you of guilt
Your lipstick on sheets can help you forget
Am I the ghost in your halls?
Or the corpse in your closet?
The doc says I’ve lost it
You say I’ve lost myself
But I watched you lose everyone that you ever cared about

(So I’m calling you out)

Twelve story buildings
You find so fulfilling
And I can still tell your smile is fake
You’re good on your toes
But no one can see
Just be honest with me
And I’ll cut you a break

You were the gravity
Holding me down
I was the plane crash heading nowhere south
These past few years
They’re so dead to me
So I compiled all your fears into melody
Don’t learn this and sing with me
You’re always one step ahead of me
Don’t learn this and sing with me
(Repetition for irony)
You’re one step ahead of me


Twelve story buildings
You find so fulfilling
And I can still tell your smile is fake
You’re good on your toes
But no one can see
That your eyes still flood like a lake
(Flood like a lake)
You’ve been so reckless
I’ve been a mess
Let’s trade places for old time’s sake
(Old Time’s sake)
You’re good on your toes
But no one can see
Just be honest with me
And I’ll cut you a break

You danced away the headaches
And I wrote away the heartache
I wish we never kissed
I wish we never fucked
I wish we never met
I wish we never touched

Twelve story buildings
You find so fulfilling
And I can still tell your smile is fake
You’re good on your toes
But no one can see
That your eyes still flood like a lake
(Flood like a lake)
You’ve been so reckless
I’ve been a mess
Let’s trade places for old time’s sake
(Old Time’s sake)
You’re good on your toes
But no one can see
Just be honest with me
And I’ll cut you a break

Cut you a break
Track Name: Sewn Up
Ties have been breaking
But maybe it’s due to the fact
That you broke down my will
And you fucked with my head

It’s a long drive home
I’ll make sure I crash using cruise control
Everyone I know
Can vouch for my indifference
When I’m feeling low
I’m make sure that I’m distant
Don’t make me into something I’m not
Don’t make me into something I’m not

Ties have been breaking
But maybe it’s due to the fact
That you broke down my will
And you fucked with my head
But I need to feel something
And I’m sick of feeling dead
This year might go faster
I’m happy and bitter instead

And when you find the time to grow up
I’ll be happily sewn up
And when you find the time to grow up
I’ll be happily sewn up
(Happily sewn up)

Make no mistake I’m coming for your pride
You know I gave up mine
When you ruined me
And gutted my insides
I’m losing faith in everyone around me
I’m finding solace in new broken boundaries

So now take all these words that I wrote
If you’re choked up get ink on your throat
So you can show everyone back home
Someone used to love you
But now you’re on your own

Ties have been breaking
But maybe it’s due to the fact
That you broke down my will
And you fucked with my head
But I need to feel something
And I’m sick of feeling dead
This year might go faster
I’m happy and bitter instead

And when you find the time to grow up
I’ll be happily sewn up
And when you find the time to grow up
I’ll be happily sewn up

Make no mistake I’m coming for your pride
Make no mistake I’m coming for your pride

While you’re waiting
You count the wolves
I’ll take the sheep
I think it’s fucking time I get some sleep
Track Name: Circadian
Do you remember the summer that fucked us up?
We drove every Sunday it was never enough
I felt like the world was finally alright
You’re only escape my only fair fight

The summers don’t feel the same now
My sleeping patterns aren’t something to envy
And I feel like I’m losing my last grip
On the one thing I wanted to be

I was never strong enough
To hold us together
To keep us held up
So I’ll stay out of the city
You’re happy in college
I’m lost and alone

You used to call me a monster
I told you I swear that my blood runs warm
But lately I can’t even feel
What’s running through my veins

The summers don’t feel the same now
My sleeping patterns aren’t something to envy
And I feel like I’m losing my last grip
On the one thing I wanted to be

I was never strong enough
To hold us together
To keep us held up
So I’ll stay out of the city
You’re happy in college
I’m lost and alone

Do you remember the summer that made us who we are?
Despite all your strife
City life hasn’t saved me

But there’s one thing I’ll never pity
(We’re fighting the same fight)
It’s the way that you feel when you hear all these songs
(And I’m far from happy)

I was never strong enough
To hold us together
To keep us held up
So I’ll stay out of the city
You’re happy in college
I’m lost and alone
Track Name: Belleview
I spent the worst part of three years screaming into a notebook

It only forced you away
And kept me insane
Warm blood and young veins
Mean everything
I wished wolves on you
And for that I’m truly sorry
That old oak stands
But it’s an honest horror story

When you left I knew that something real was missing
Now I never want to feel that way again

Fate is real and people change
I find myself exploiting names
My only answer is that I lost
Myself when all I knew was us
I’m still not in love with sand,
West coast beaches, holding hands
We still have our work cut out
To thaw out my Midwest mouth

Dear I know its been unreal
But this is how an ending feels

When you left I knew that something real was missing
Now I never want to feel that way again

I’ll make this all right
We’ll both be alright
My words can cut right
But now they’ll sit right

Now I see you in everything
(Find what you love and let it make you)
But I’d give most anything
(No matter how long it may take)
And I’ll take this all back
(Find what you love and let it make you)
Just to fix what we had
(No matter how long it may take)